listening to his music always makes me feel even more intelligent than i already am.

i wonder why.

merry merry x’mas!

i worked till 2.30pm ++ and am down with a bad cough and a mouthful of ulcers.

how nice.

going to sleep till saturday morning and cycle with nikko!

i’m back from kluang, malaysia after spending 3 days and 2 nights there for may’s wedding. it was a wonderful experience and i’m glad she gave me the chance to experience so many first in 3 days!

the first time….

• i took the KTM (train) to malaysia
• i stayed on my own at hotel
• i attended an overseas wedding reception
• i get to be bridesmaid
• i am involved in the wedding door games (in fact, i can’t even remember ever being present for any wedding door games)
• i bought a wedding gift for a friend
• i walked a bit of malaysia alone for a few minutes.
• i bought travel insurance on my own!

wide open spaces can be so liberating and fun.

will post more some pictures of kluang later because i am damn tired and i want to sleep.

ps: john mayer’s music is a great travel companion. his voice and music makes me feel reflective and smart almost instantly.

john mayer’s new album is so awesome.

my favourite is “edge of desire”. gosh, desires cannot be more subtle and honest than this.

Young and full of running
Tell me where’s that taking me?
Just a great figure 8 or a tiny infinity

Love is really nothing
But a dream that keeps waking me
For all of my trying
You still end up dying
How can it be?

Don’t say a word, just come over and lie here with me
‘Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I’m scared you’ll forget about me

So young and full of running, all the way to the edge of desire
Steady my breathing, silently screaming,
“I have to have you now”
Wired and I’m tired
Think I’ll sleep in my clothes on the floor
Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me on yours

Don’t say a word just come over and lie here with me
‘Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I’m scared you’ll forget about me

Don’t say a word just come over and lie here with me
‘Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I’m scared you’ll forget about me

http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/2009/12/on-streetthe-accountant-sydney.html

gorgeous!

i realised i’ve get this blog going for almost 2.5 years. unlike previous blogs, i have yet to read old entries and feel disgust. unlike previous blogs, i have yet to remove everything i’ve written.unlike previous blogs, i actually still feel joy in updating this blog.

much thanks to heng who once asked me why would i want to delete myself away and that i should learn to accept and love myself even on the days or months or years i am utterly off.

that stuck with me and it is the reason this blog did not suffer the fate like the previous 4 blogs.

we don’t talk much but when we do, he usually have some wise litle thing for me to reflect on and remember.

like a wise old sage.

christmas has always been my favourite time in the year but i’m feeling no x’mas vibes this year. i wonder is it because i’m stuck at changi and there is absolutely nothing there that makes one feels like christmas.

i have no intentions of buying anyone any special gifts.

i didn’t shop like crazy like i usually do at year end.

i have no excitement for the coming 2010. it doesn’t feel like a new year but an extension of the current year.

doesn’t help that no one at work seems excited about christmas? i wonder what will excite them.

gosh, am i getting too old too fast?

some has asked me to drop by town but i’m there almost every week and i remained unfazed by the spirit.

sigh.

just downloaded susan boyle’s album version of “i dreamed a dream”. not as soaring as the competition’s version but still great.

gosh, gives me goosebumps everytime i hear it.

listening to the song while updating my iphone software to 3.1.2 – was abit apprehensive about the update because nikko’s phone crashed when she updated it from 3.0 to 3.1. i pray with all my heart that the phone software and functions remains intact after the update. a big part of my life is in there.

i wonder will there be a new iphone next august 2010. after using iphone, i don’t think i want any other phone.

/update/ made a dumb move and update iphone @ 12.30am. it’s 1am and it’s still synchronising. ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!

ah, i shall begin from here! that’s almost like 30 episodes to catch up.

i think i had quite a fulfilling weekend so i shall blog about everything in point form.

-friday-

tears fell / did not finish my macdonal meal / headed home to find mummy in pain and gave her a leg massage until she felt better / finished “the unlikely disciple” on the living room sofa and decided my next book should be jane austen’s pride and prejudice / downloaded lots of music

- saturday-

breathed and stretched on my exercise mat in the morning / facial / had mee rebus + tea for brunch @ 3 / bought a gift / pedicure / bought a face toner / bought kiehl’s face, lips and hair products / dinner with self @ cedele / bought a pretty pink dinner bag / work on exercise mat again / let mum skype with sis who isin hong kong / started on Bleach again (still trying to find the episode i last watched)

- sunday -

hair treatment / lunch @ romankan / face threading / bought “the style strategy” because it made me laugh & time out singapore / bought egg tarts for grandma and family / played with julian’s new BB bold and decided that iphone’s still the one for me / had dinner with parents / subscribed to time out asia @ a cheap $11.58 per year / read pride & prejudice and the first chapter made me laugh out loud / breathed and stretched on my exercise mat

i love busy weekends.

dear kns,

you’re away in bangkok. i’m not sure if you need me to take care of your cafe but i briefly remember you asking me to cook.

i checked into your cafe a couple of times and attempted to cook something for you but cafe world kept dying on me. i cooked 10 dishes but it disappeared from the screen.

anyway, i believe someone is tending the cafe for you because there’s something brewing on the stove. i guess you can’t depend on unreliable me to look after your cafe. i’m this close to abandoning my own cafe!

btw, the number of stoves you have shocked me!!!!

oh, i said would head to ojolali (and not go back to the previous office) during your absence.  i did today but it was so freaking crowded i couldn’t even get myself a seat!

hope you’re enjoying bangkok! me in singapore waiting for souvenir.

cheers.

kns

i remember my (ex) colleagues and i went crazy when twilight was released late last year.

we were gushing madly, swooning daily and chomping down the books like there is nothing else worth reading than these.

the things that capture young people’s attention is so different from the not so young.

i haven’t heard anyone in my current workplace talked about the twilight series.

no one is wishing they had a edward cullen in their life.

come to think of it, no one has relationship woes either because they are either getting married, married or very settled down with kids.

gosh.

my mind played tricks with me 2 weeks ago.

i was sitting at the cafe with a bunch of colleagues and suddenly their faces were replaced with the faces of my ex-colleagues – shirley, sandy, jenice, edmund and ex boss.

oh, how i miss lunching with them.

the idea of doing volunteer work has been on my mind over the last 5 to 6 years and i’m ashamed to admit that i never really got around to doing it.

i really should start doing it. a new year is coming and i want 2010 to be better than 2009 by leaps and bounds. besides, there must be a reason why it’s still on my mind after 6 years and there must be a reason why i’m always drawn to articles about it.

been reading a lot about ordinary people and their extraordinary works lately. everything i read serves as a reminder on the good works i’m not doing. something about reading reader digest always makes me more aware of the sufferings and misfortune of the world. one really should do more for the community and society.

read a magazine’s interview with rui en over the weekend and she spoke about her attempts to be less self centred and more people centred. we always read about people who are already doing great things and i often wonder “ah, will i ever be that?” and here you have, a lady so candid about her efforts to be less self centred.

there’s nothing wrong with taking baby steps as long as you keep walking.

i also read another article about how this rich banker gave up her glamorous lifestyle and high income to focus on philanthropy works. i don’t think i can ever do that but it certainly is inspiring.

and the video posted by michelle – julian lennon’s saltwater sums up this weekend’s aspirations.

We are a rock revolving
Around a golden sun
We are a billion children rolled into one
So when I hear about the hole in the sky
Saltwater wells in my eyes

We climb the highest mountain
We’ll make the desert bloom
We’re so ingenious we can walk the moon
But when I hear of how the forest have died
Saltwater wells in my eyes

Bridge:
I have lived for love
But now that’s not enough
For the world I love is dying And now I’m crying
And time is not a friend (no friend of mine)
As friends we’re out of time
And it’s slowly passing by ….right before our eyes

We light the deepest ocean
Send photographs of Mars
We’re so enchanted my how clever we are
Why should one baby feel so hungry she cries
Saltwater wells in my eyes

Bridge

We are a rock revolving
Around a golden sun
We are a billion children rolled into one
What will I think of me the day that I die
Saltwater wells in my eyes
Saltwater wells in my eyes

this has been a favourite since my schooling days. the melody creeped into my mind on friday and i have been listening to it since.

i don’t know about you but it feels like the sun is singing to me and that i am one with nature. just that idea alone puts me in a bright and cheery mood.

i can’t wait for the day where i can run itunes and facebook together without any system lag.

oh, mini note, sorry i have to burden you with so much. don’t die on me till i get a new notebook.

i wish i can write speeches like that.

i almost died chuckling when i saw this song. aw man, old songs can still be so nice and apt.

one of my favourite kit chan song…but youtube don’t have the song.

enjoy the lyrics.

相对默默
爱走到无话可说
连梦都没有
还能走多久
从来不奢求太多
爱已错过
不能任性挥霍
我们心中多少爱
和多少痛
究竟是为什么
告诉我
是爱让我犯了错
深深付出不为谁
不为对错
而现在只想放弃所有
他们说
是爱让我犯了错
慢慢懂得 心再痛
也要放手
原谅我不会再回头

i’ve been scouring for old music to listen to recently and today is the night for kit chan music.

gosh i love this lady.

one of the last songs from her was “别让我恨你” and somehow this song creep into memory tonight. lately, a lot of songs from the days of my youth are creeping into my head and i’m always surprised when the song or lyrics speaks to me. or maybe it’s just a deeper level of understanding for songs because i’m only a decade older since i heard these songs.

or my subconscious mind is telling me something. hur hur.

世界是圆的 我想我们会再见面
而心情是粉碎的 也许这才是最完美的结局
今晚 让我们彼此冷静地说声 珍重再见
就像庆祝我们曾经轰轰烈烈 爱过的每一天
今晚 让我们断了可恨的争吵和不停的抱歉
留下一个吻 或许一个拥抱
让这段感情停在这最温柔的一天
我不想继续哭哭啼啼 说我多么委屈
我开始怀疑自己多少事事无能为力
我不想藉着密密麻麻 悲伤的日记
继续欺骗着 安抚着自己
我不想等到一天 感情已经被谁代替
才经由朋友口中 传来背叛的消息
我不愿这段情分 走到最后无法呼吸
连一声问候 连一点消息都觉得痛心
都感到多余
别让我恨你

yay! done with another book. i thoroughly enjoyed this book for roose’s honesty and compassion. it’s a book i do not mind reading again.

can’t believe he wrote this at age 19.

an american 19 yr old is so different from an asian 19 yr old.

everything i struggled to understand and accept of christianity, he was able to put it across so eloquently and respectfully in this book.

i feel so blessed everytime i finish a good book.