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i’m so glad friday is here. it’s been a long and draining week – meetings, deadlines and a new boss who came and went in 430,000 seconds.

work hasn’t been easy. so many obstacles, so many things to decide and so much uncertainty in the air. there is no one around to really assist me, to fend or decide for me.

i’m in no position to make big decisions but i’m given decisions to make. i feel the stress of having the system interface/uat sitting on my broad shoulders. i feel lost sometimes because there is no one else to turn to. i sit in meetings trying to comprehend the technicalities of the processes and implementations (an area that is way beyond my expertise), trying to fit in double entries into a system, going through the same things over and over again in my head and worrying about the things i might have missed out. the lady spearheading this project has been so kind and understanding towards me. i don’t think i would have survived 2 months worth of system testing and finalisation without her presence.

i have stacks of documents for me to check – the last time i measured it was about 30cm thick. i have counter collections to tabulate and count. i have advice to dispense, enquiries to answer & hundreds of email to classify and organise. almost every temp and contract staff in my department has been, in one way or the other, guided by me. over the last 3 months, i have seen almost 10 temps and contract staff. i have the massive accounts receivable exercise to work on and the year end closing to finalise.

and of course, the milestones ahead – year end closing, internal, external, ISO audit and the acca june papers to squeeze in between this immensely busy period.

i have accumulated over 100 hours of time off over the last 3 months. my energy is running really low. i have cleared almost 16 hours of time off but it takes only 2 hour of work to leave me dry. i can never fill up my energy tank this way.

i can only hang on until end may to enjoy my 3 week study break. this is something that is only appreciated after being tormented in the corporate world - working is a lot more tiring than studying but the former gives me more satisfaction.